Way back into life

Another 'GJ' song that is dedicated to you. Taken from 'Way back into love' by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett

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I’ve been living with uncertain overhead
I’ve been working for no result in my lab
I’ve been slacking for so long
Trapped in project, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been giving all my hopes and dreams away
Just to find I made worst mistake in my life
I’ve been setting aside time
To regret and blame my thinking that was on my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into life
I can’t make it through without quitting this kind of life
Oh oh oh

I’ve been working but the prof feels it’s a fail
I’ve been searching but I just can’t make it right
I doubt it can be done
Whether there is something I can do somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to scold me for the craps
I may have some direction
But it’s turned down by your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into life
I can’t make it through without quitting this kind of life
And if I open my eyes again
I’m sure I’m hoping this PhD is coming to the end

Now it’s moment when I hope to make it real
Don’t care if you feel the way I feel
I need graduation
Not just another negotiation cocok banget buat HgS

All I wanna do is find a way back into life
I can’t make it through without quitting this kind of life
And if I start my career on you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
Promise that I’ll be there for you till the end

~AYS~

We should have known these stuffs!!

The practical thing!

        

For those who just wanna quit!!

For those who love to dream!

For those who being too delusional

www.stuffnoonetoldme.blogspot.com

let's sing a song.. =)

Have you ever heard this kind of song before?
Well.. for us.. Indonesian.. I bet that almost all of you know this song.. then.. let's we sing together =)

"Bangun Tidur.. Kuterus mandi...
Tidak lupa.. menggosok gigi..
Habis mandi.. Ku tOlong Ibu..
Membersihkan tempat tdr ku.."

Well.. i just want to change the lyric a little bit.. so keep singing with original rhythm.

"Bangun Tidur.. Kupandang alarm..
Oh tidakk.. koq sudah pagi...
Mata ngantuk.. Pikiran buntu..
Kenapa harus kembali ke lab.."


Another song

"Baju ku dulu.. Tak begini..
Tapi kini tak cukup lagi..
Ku pintar.. Ku besar.. Kutambah tinggi..
Scott's emulsion.. Tuk tumbuh.. besar.."


"Hidup ku dulu.. Tak begini..
Sebelum ku masuk pi etch di..
Ku bosan.. Ku jenuh.. Ngelab.. Terus..
Oh pi etch di.. Kapan berakhirr..."

-habis suntuk ngelab hasil ga jelas mulu..-

Legendary advisor's quotes over time

" Work hard. Work overtime. " (first conversation after PhD intake)

" What time did you wake up everyday? Come directly to lab. Btw, when is the last bus to your home?" (second conversation after PhD intake)

" You are here to do research. I believe subject is not a big matter for you. Don't just sit here to study coursework and read paper. Go to lab and learn something." (about second week after PhD intake)

" The most important thing to do is be hardworking. Don't consider yourself as a normal office worker who come at 9 and go back at 5 or 6. Work overtime. Come on the weekend. It applied to all of you." (lab meeting 2008, message to one of my junior)

" You should do experiment on the day and read paper at night " (lab meeting, end of 2008)

" You think you are that special? Please tell me the things you can do that other people cannot do " (2008)

" Don't worry about QE. It can still drag until 2 years time " (2009)

" I consider my lab members as people very close to m" I push you for your own good, to achieve your dream "e after my family " (lab meeting, 2009)

" To be a good teacher, you should have good publication " (one time in 2009)

(the crash day, 2009)

" Publication is more important than graduation " (2009, to one of senior)

" I would like to treat lunch for you all for my promotion to associate. But try to find close place so you can come back to lab to work " (2010)

" I know I don't treat you so well in the past few years but... please don't go so early. Can you just try to stay here for a while?" (mid of 2010)

Have u heard of "Henri Poincaré"

I stumbled across some blogs and you guess what I found...


Ehmm..am thinking of the equivalent of Robert Greene.. but for science.. Geez am a geek still.


One of his many eloquent quotes, it makes me think if I do "love" science for real..


"The scientist does not study nature because it is useful to do so. He studies it because he takes pleasure in it, and he takes pleasure in it because it is beautiful. If nature were not beautiful it would not be worth knowing, and life would not be worth living. I am not speaking, of course, of the beauty which strikes the senses, of the beauty of qualities and appearances. I am far from despising this, but it has nothing to do with science. What I mean is that more intimate beauty which comes from the harmonious order of its parts, and which a pure intelligence can grasp."


"It is by logic that we prove, but by intuition that we discover. To know how to criticize is good, to know how to create is better."


"Logic teaches us that on such and such a road we are sure of not meeting an obstacle; it does not tell us which is the road that leads to the desired end. For this, it is necessary to see the end from afar, and the faculty which teaches us to see is intuition. Without it, the geometrician would be like a writer well up in grammar but destitute of ideas."


Ughhh..never would I flirt using science in this manner....it is just too much unless for Sheldon!!


References: Wikipedia, http://arunn.info/.

I don't care

Hey perfectionist
It's about stubbornness
And I simply couldn't cope
I had to do all these craps for the sake of your irrational expectation you know
Now I will act like I don't care
That's the only way I can graduate

~AYS~
terbawaemosi

Happy Reading :)

The Professors Who Won't Retire (<-- Click)

the boundary of a PhD: where we are

hi friends :)

just wanna share u all a link.
*i'd like to really write them by myself at e 1st time tho, but i declined that idea when i thought about copyright (although i really can just copy-paste-rephrase it and just state e referral source link at e end of the post, however rephrasing them might deviate the 1st intention of making it sound funny).
so here is the link: The illustrated guide to a Ph.D.

so Keep Pushing.

Enjoy! :)

5 Stages of PhD

Inspired from "5 stages of grief" with some modifications and arrangements.

1. Acceptance
Feel the excitement on becoming PhD student? See.. you would be working towards the most prestigious degree in society where all people think that you are the chosen people. In addition, well.. steady stipend during the next 3 or 4 years? An offer which is too god to refuse.

"Hooray.. I was accepted"; "I will become PhD student's model. Publishing 7 high impact journals? I am confident that I can. etc..etc.."

2. Depression
As time goes by, you realize that the things do not always go well. Whenever you have bad outcomes and you see that extremely good results in the journals you just read. Whenever you can't do the job because your boss has no enough money or no equipment.. or whenever your boss blame you for not following his/her suggestions

"Why it doesn't work" "It's not supposed to be like this"

3. Anger
Bad results, no publications until your stipend period is reaching its end, plus there is no sign from your boss that he/she will let you graduate very soon. Hey.. he/she said that he/she still have plenty crazy ideas to explore on your thesis work.

"Aaarghhh.. I was fed up." "I am going to be crazy with all these things"

3. Denial
You realize that PhD may not be best life decision for you. You simply do not passionate enough to do the research thing and pursue all possible opportunities to expand your work given all limiting constraints you (and your boss) have. In addition, you may gain envious on your 'no-brain' friends do well and earn more than you do.

"May be I should not take PhD in the first place" "What the hell I was thinking before?"

5. Bargaining
Dear my beloved professor.. Please let me graduate. Thank you.


~AYS~
laginyarikerja..adalowongan?